For the first time I feel the need to share something very personal and dear to me.
9 years ago when I was living in Sydney Australia, because I couldn't find a nice hairdresser specialized in African hair I decided to go to the only hairsalon that was close to my house. The woman was african so I immediately felt comfortable and believed that she had the expertise to relax my hair. Long story short she used a supposedly light relaxer that is usually applied on kids. Since I have a very sensitive scalp, I couldn't keep it longer than 20 minutes. She rinsed out my hair 3 or 4 times on request, but my scalp was still itchy.
At the she guaranteed me that the product was all gone, and I was just being paranoid.
I believed her and went home. What happened after was a blessing in disguise.
I've lost all most of my hair after few days and was diagnosed with alopecia.
This was the worse moment of my life. I felt so ugly and deprived of the only thing that I believed was contributing to my self-confidence.
But it also made me realised is that for many years, since a very young age I've never celebrated and cherished my hair. All I was doing was hidding it, whether it was wigs, weaves, very tight braids, and applying extreme chemicals to make it look silkier and beautiful per se.
The reality is that I didn't love it the way it naturally was, I had no one around me or in the media that inspired me to love and embrace my hair the way it was. I was in complete despair and felt that my world had fallen apart.
I was condemned to wear wigs for the rest of my life (I'm being dramatic here as usual ), but on a more serious note I knew that I would never feel pretty again, because all of these fake hairs were also a way for me to hide my big forehead and became part of my identity. So not having hair at all, was just the end of my "so called" world.
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