!!!TRIGGER WARNING: DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, SELF HARM, SUICIDE!!!
Today is my birthday! I finally turned 17, I've have had an amazing weekend surrounded by the ones I love most.
Being 16 was a very, very tough time for me. I've battled through the worst anxiety and depression I've ever had. I've delt with bullying, isolation, discovering and accepting my sexuality, the death of friends, hatred, abandonment, guilt, pain and misery. I've struggled a lot this year and there were many times I thought I wasn't going to make it to 17. There were times when I almost gave up. I was so tired of all this pain and misery that I just wanted it all to end.
I've had issues with self harm and suicidal thoughts, severe panic attacks, eating disorders and basically a lot of hatred for myself and the world around me.
But I got through it. I didn't give up hope. Yes, it was difficult, there were times when I was in such a bad place I could barely get out if bed because i didn't see any reason to try. But my family and friends never gave up on me. They fought for me when I wouldn't fight for myself. They stuck by me even though I was so horrible to them all and I can honestly say I wouldn't not be alive today if it wasn't for them. I will forever be eternally grateful for having them in my life. They showed me that there was still things to fight for.
So please, if you ever find yourself in a dark place, reach out to someone. Whether it be a friend, family member, an online resource, a doctor, councillor or even someone online, please please reach out to them. I promise you this tough time will pass and it'll be worth it in the end.
If anyone needs help, feel free to message me on here or on my other accounts:
Blog thing: @bi.girl.and.a.dog
Other account: @life.gets.better.today
I'm always willing to listen and help as best I can
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