This morning I stayed in bed, drank my coffee, and read a bit.
My heart a bit meloncholy.
Its a small Thanksgiving with just my stepdad, the boys and me...oh, and don’t forget Lucy!
This year has been quite a roller coaster. The downs have been very low. The ups, extremely joyful.
Navigating this life now as a single mom has changed everything. Everything I believe in...God, meditation, prayer, journaling, making life a practice in peace is still there...but, it all feels a bit distant underneath the “doings” of every day life.
There are days I wake up and wonder how I got here. Then, there are days I wake up overflowing with the possibilities of life....the roller coaster.
My kids have been through so much, and yet, they persevere. I have been through so much. Yet, I hold on faithfully that life isn’t always going to be so hard.
Starting over is harder than I thought. But, so was staying where I knew I no longer wanted to be. With both decisions at hand, I am grateful that I made the decision I did.
I contemplate gratitide and Thanksgiving every day because it’s the thing that keeps me grounded when life. Feels. So. Hard.
I don’t need a “Thanksgiving day.” But, since today is Thanksgiving Day, what I am grateful for is change, heartache, challenge and those who have shown up in my life to give me a chance to CHOOSE resilience, patience, consciousness and overcoming adversity.
If it wasn’t for them (him), I wouldn’t have had the chance to open up to choice, possibility, love and LIFE.
Of course today I am grateful for family, my kids, the meal we’ll eat later and all of that. That’s easy. More so, today, I’m humbly grateful for the pain that life sometimes has to bring to open us up to who we really are.
I am grateful for who I am in this world now because my heart has been blown to pieces and put together stronger and more resilient then ever.
That’s what today is for me. A day of thanksgiving for strength, resilience and love. ...and now to make my turkey ☝️ What’s something UNexpected that you are grateful for? #lifeafterdivorce #momdiaries #gratitude #findjoyinthejourney